"life is nothing without love..love is nothing without you.."

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

nervous.


saya nervous.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Merdeka!


Happy Independence Day!



My favourite "Merdeka" song of all time :)

P/S: I miss celebrating Independence Day with friends at school and UiTM. We got to sing the Merdeka song out loud with the mini Jalur Gemilang in our hands. Those were the days. 

 HAPPY 53RD INDEPENDENCE DAY MALAYSIA!
31/08/10

Friday, August 27, 2010

thank you fiffy :)


27.08.10 - together for 18 months 

what did we do?

1. movie - phua chu kang the movie!


the movie was ok-lah. fiffy was the one who chose the movie. the movie was at 5pm. fiffy went to sunway pyramid around 11am to buy the ticket because today is holiday and he was scared that we will not be able to watch movie at all if we just gamble since i can't book the tickets online. initially, we wanted to watch "the last airbender" but i don't know why he decided to watch PCK instead. well, since he was the one who bought the tickets, i guess i just have to follow what he had chosen for us to watch. no biggie! :)

2. break fast - strawberry field



i chose this place because i was craving for their buttercream chicken rice. yummy! fiffy ordered the same thing too, except that mine was chicken, and his was seafood.



isn't it yummy? it was delicious! after fiffy bought the tickets, where he had to line up for about an hour, he went straight to Strawberry Field to book a table for us. i didn't know he was going to reserve the place because i thought we were going there after the break fast to avoid jam and waiting for tables. 

to be honest, i was surprised he did all that. i asked him to be in charge and he did! i'm happy that our date went well sayang :)

before i left, he gave me something. not a bouquet of flower, not a perfume, not a new bag, not a watch or any expensive things. he bought me a cooling pad for my laptop! a few days before, i told him that the cooling pad that i borrowed from him cannot be used anymore and i wanted to pay him back, since i broke his stuff. but instead, he bought me a new one. i know, maybe to some people, it is nothing, but to me, it is something. he just knew what i wanted or what i needed. and i needed a cooling pad for my laptop. thank you sayang!





thank you sayang. you always buy me stuff but i hardly buy u anything, i'm sorry. when i have money, i'll buy you the Superman t-shirt that you wanted ok ;)


happy 18th month sayang. i love you :)

Thursday, August 26, 2010

ailurophobia

ailurophobia : fear of cats
--> An abnormal and persistent fear of cats which produces an undue anxiety reaction even though sufferers realize their fear is irrational. Sufferers of this phobia may fear not only the scratch or bite of a cat, but also the "evil mystique" of cats as depicted in Halloween folklore and such literary works as Edgar Allen Poe's "The Black Cat."


yeah..i'm scared that a cat will bite or scratch me..
it happened to me when i was a kid..
TRAUMA.


but i don't hate cats. i find them cute. but i'm scared to go near them or touch them. their fingernails are long and sharp! it hurts. 

aren't you scared of this cat? i feel like this cat will jump at anyone and scratch their faces off!

BUT

i do think this kitten is cute! :)

so don't think that just because i'm scared of cats/kittens, i'm going to be mean to them. 
because i won't. :)

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

i don't like it.

i never liked you.
i don't like it when you talk.
i don't like it when you sit beside me.
i don't like it when you think you are funny.
i don't like it when you act like you are innocent when you are not.
i don't like it when you think you are better than me.
i don't like it when you wear my clothes.
i don't like it when you talk on the phone.
i don't like it when you sleep.
i don't like it when you cook.
i don't like it when you bring your friends home.
i don't like it when you laugh.
i don't like it when you bring a child to my room and my parents' room.
i don't like it when you watch the television.
i don't like it when you listen to the radio.
i don't like it when you are in the car with me.
i don't like it when i have to drive you somewhere.
i don't like it when you are trying to make a conversation with me.
i don't like it when you talk about me to my parents.
i don't like it when you ask for my help.
i don't like it when you pretend to be concerned about me.
i don't like it when you scold my brothers.

to sum it up, i DON'T like YOU at all. the WHOLE YOU. in fact, i might starting to HATE you. thank you.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

who would have thought



when i first watched this, i thought the judges would say 'no' but man, i was wrong!
when one of the judges asked "why do you think you got the X Factor?" and she replied "it could be me" (3 times)
i guess Simon does think she has the X Factor..it really could be her. 
watch it :)

Friday, August 20, 2010

balik kampung!

since this year we are going to celebrate raya here (kl), so my dad wants us to break fast at JB at least once with his siblings. trust me, going to JB is not what me and my brother are looking forward to. we kinda like the outsiders there because we don't have cousins that near  our age. it is either they are older or super younger. i used to be closed with them when i was younger but i don't know what had happened which makes me feel awkward when i am with them. but no worries, we'll be gone for only 2 days and 1 night and i really hope time will fly fast. 


tomorrow will be my mom's birthday, so we are going to celebrate it at JB. this is the first time we celebrate it outside KL. usually, we will celebrate it by having dinner at a restaurant (mom's choice) and then we will buy cake before we go home. it is just a small celebration. but tomorrow will be different. different place, different crowd and different type of food. maybe it will not be that bad. who knows right?


but before we go to JB, my youngest brother Jemir is going to do his Mykad. he has been asking my dad to do it for a few months already and tomorrow is the day. and guess what? Emir and I are going to renew our Mykad! yeay!!! we are soo looking forward for that!do you wanna know why?my picture in my current Mykad right now is super hideous!i am ashamed of myself!i am ashamed to show it to people. so tomorrow, i have the chance to redeem myself by making sure that my picture for my Mykad will be better. hehe..cant wait!


p/s: currently waiting for fiffy to come for sahur :)

Monday, August 16, 2010

tak sangka.

i went for cimb interview last friday and i think it went well.
except that they thought i am good at doing sales.
well, i think i have to just wait for them to call me to see if they are going to hire me or not.


last night, after 'berbuka' with my friends at flamming steamboat, i arrived home about 11 something. *kesas pun jam ok!*
and then, i went online and besides facebook-ing *since that is what all i do lately* i was also looking for a job through jobstreet.com and i realised that a company has replied my resume and wants me to go to interview this wednesday! at KEPONG!


i never knew the company was at KEPONG
the company's name was confidential but i just sent my resume because the position is for event executive/coordinator *sounds cool kan?* and i certainly did not expect that i will be called for an interview!
now i am super nervous!i don't even know how to get there!i guess tomorrow i have to drive around so that i wont get lost on wednesday.


wish me luck!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

buka puasa: FIRST DAY





i love it when my mom cooks for buka puasa.
today..she cooked mee bandung, nasi goreng cili padi, steak and drummet!
wohohoho!
and i was forced to finish the nasi goreng cili padi since it is too spicy for my parents..haha..
i love you mama!
you know how to make your daughter happy!
and i think, by the end of ramadhan, i will be super fat if she keeps cooking like this!hehe



Tuesday, August 10, 2010

unexpected phone call.





yesterday.
unexpected phone call.
cimb.
friday, 2pm.
good luck.
to me.




happy Ramadhan!


Happy Ramadhan everyone! 
let's cherish this month and celebrate it by doing more 'ibadah' :)

i'm so nervous for my 1st day of puasa tomorrow and i don't know why!haha
happy fasting! :)

p/s: fiffy is coming to sahur with me..isn't he is sweet? *but i'm not a sahur kinda person..but im happy that he is willing to come...ngeee~


p/s/s: sahur two times is not what i have in mind..i always make sure i sahur on the first day with my family..i guess i won't be hungry at all for my first day of puasa tomorrow!hehe

Friday, August 6, 2010

love the way you lie.



love the song.
love the video.
                                                     
*rihanna*


Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
That's all right 
Because i like

The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
That's alright
Because I love 
The way you lie
I Love the way you lie
I Love the way you lie


I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife 
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But l still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High off of love
Drunk from my hate
It's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love her the more that I suffer
I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And i love it 
Wait
Where you going 
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm superman 
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snapped
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

*rihanna*

You ever loved somebody so much
You could barely breathe 
When you're with them
You meet 
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills 
Used to get 'em
Now you getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's faces
Spewing venom
in your words 
When you spit 'em 
You push, pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bite 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em 
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

*rihanna*


Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routines
But you're temper's just as bad 
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You"re just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you 
Baby it was me 
Maybe our relationship 
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens 
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away through
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when i talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time i'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time 
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of these games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire




*rihanna*

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

oh mengapa

tidak aku tau mengapa ini sering terjadi kepada diriku, tetapi bukan kepada orang lain. 
aku selalu tertanya-tanya, "Mengapa aku?" Malam ini, ia terjadi lagi. Alkisahnye:


Aku sampai umah pada pukul 10pm. Pabila aku ingin mandi, ibuku sedang menggunakan tandas. lalu, aku pun online lah sementara menunggu ibuku selesai di tandas. setelah setengah jam aku ber-facebook and bergayut, sudah tiba masanye untuk aku mandi kerana badanku sudah gatal-gatal.


secara tetiba, lampu tandas tidak berfungsi. asyik berkelip-kelip. telah kucuba on/off beberapa kali tetapi, tetap berkelip-kelip. perasaan bengang ku muncul. ditambah pula dengan badan yang semakin gatal, yang menandakan badan ku memerlukan curahan air dan sabun mandi sebagai ubat. dan tidak lupe juga, aku ingin sangat-sangat terkucil. 


aku di dalam dilema di mana aku sedang berfikir, perlukah aku mandi dengan pintu terbuka supaya mendapat cahaya dari lampu di luar tandas atau perlukah aku tutup sahaja? akhirnye, aku membuat keputusan untuk menutup pintu, khuatir jika tetiba ibu bapa ku dan adikku ternampak apa yang mereka sepatutnye tidak nampak. jadi, paham-paham jela. 


sedang aku bermandi, aku terbayangkan benda-benda yang tidak sepatutnye. aku membayangkan cerita-cerita seram yang mempunyai adegan-adegan di dalam tandas. aku semakin cuak! lantas aku cube untuk mandi dengan cepat. aku skip untuk syampu rambut. tetiba, lampu tandas aku tidak lagi terkelip-kelip. ia terpadam terus! semakin kuat aku membayangkan adegan-adegan dalam cerita seram. pada masa yang sama, air shower ku terhenti. dan aku dalam keadaan bersabun. oh betapa aku benci keadaan ini terjadi. aku terpaksa tunggu beberapa minit supaya air shower ku muncul kembali. 


oh kenapalah ini sentiasa terjadi pada diriku dan bukan ahli keluargaku yang lain??