yesterday...

yesterday was a fun day..
no..super duper fun day!
gahaha..
we went for a movie called "how to train your dragon"..
i like the movie soo much! i feel like wanna watch it again..but in 3D this time..hehe..
toothless is soooo cute..gahahaha


n then we went for lunch at wendy's..
n then bowling..(of course la i kalah..i suck at bowling)
n then karaoke!!!!wuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!


mmg gile enjoy la semalam..


but now...
it is time to focus 100% on assignment *sigh*
especially AE *double sigh*


but i love my U8C!!!
u guys are so cool!
so sporting and supportive!!
thank you guys for the lovely+superb+fun day yesterday!


next activity: jom picnic U8C?hehehe

finally!!

"think be out of the box" seminar was superb!

despite what other people said about it, i don't care!

to me, it was SUPERB!

i wish there were people who recorded it especially during the performance!

it was SUPER DUPER SUPERB! LOVES IT! hehe

i'm so happy that my friends and I managed to pull it out..

it was months of preparations and fundraising..

it started with selling kerepek, cupcakes, brownies, jumble sale and not to forget guitar hero and dance dance revolution's competition..

it feels like it was just last week when we did all the fundraising..

*sigh*

the ending is getting near and i feel so sad (and scared of course!) to leave UiTM Section 17 and my fellow friends..

i love you guys so much!
i love U8C!

love! love! love!

i dedicate these two songs for all of you especially U8C students :)
i love you guys!


p/s: i don't have the pics yet..i'm waiting for my friends to upload it..
p/s/s: teringat firhan and the band performed these two songs yesterday 
p/s/s/s: ignore the grammatical errors please ;)

weee!

i know this week has not ended yet..
but..
i did it!
i survive this week!
wee!!!!!

nak bunuh orang.

stress.

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still stress.

m.y.o.b please?

where do i start?
hurm...


let me just say this..


"jangan sibuk2 nak jaga tepi kain orang" please?


i don't owe you anything...
you don't owe me anything...


so please...
just shut the hell up!

week of HELL

monday - children's lit test (25%)


tuesday - submit CIE movie critique "Lions for Lambs"  *postponed*


wednesday - test 2 women in literature *postponed to thursday*


thursday - submit creative project


firday - preparation for seminar "be out of the box"


saturday - SEMINAR-day


sunday - RESTING-day




sorry guys..this week i'm fully booked!


*stress*

wake up call.

while i was at pakli just now with my kekaseh, tatie and ella..
someone called me..
i assumed it must be someone who had dialed a wrong number because that usually happens..
but suddenly..

me: hello

mistery caller: hello, may i speak to nadia?

me: sorry, who is this?

mistery called: madam nazeera

me: sorry, who?

mistery caller: madam nazeera..

wahahahaha..terkejut berok! the mistery caller was my supervisor AE!!

madam nazeera: are you still my supervisee? (Sentap!)

me: err..yes.

madam: oh you are still my supervisee. how come you did not come and see me?

u don't need to know the rest of my conversation..
basically she asked me to come and see her soon or i have to extend..i have one month left!
scary merry ok??
jantung berdebar-debar yg nervous n takut gile..hahaha
i think it is time for me to start my AE..
i mean if i could do it during my practicum, why not now right? 
so nadia, lets do i ur AE..

*but nk tido dulu bley?*wahahaha

go away.

please make it go away..
please..
it is too painful and i can't take it anymore..
please make it go away..
please...

padan muka.

ko dah tau xbley mkn pedas bnyk sgt..
tp lg nk mkn kan?
padan muka kt diri sendirik..
kan dah sakit perut yg teramat..
sampai tertonggeng-tonggeng dalam bilik..
padan muka..

*sakitnye and pedihnye perut*

scared.

went to cairex this morning..
and guess what?
i am soo freaking out right now..
i am soo scared and nervous right now..

there was a talk on knowing yourself, your strengths and weaknesses, your mission and vision, branding yourself, interviews, knowledge, CV..(and the list goes on)

do you know how freaking out am i right now??
i don't even know what are my strengths and weaknesses!(actually i know my weaknesses..and it is A LOT!)
i don't even know what i want to be in the future!
i don't even know what is my brand!
my mission and vision? DON'T ASK! 
oh..and my english?TERRIBLE! (name je amek TESL, tapi english hancur jugak!)


OMG! OMG! OMG!
i'm scared..i'm going to grad soon (hopefully, insyallah) and i still don't know what i am going to do in the future.
i can't even see myself in 5 years from now!
OMG! OMG! THIS IS SERIOUS!
i'm scared!

5 years ago, people asked me "what do you want to be after you have finished your studies?" and my answer: "i don't know" or "x pk lg"


If you ask me the same question NOW, i'll answer the same thing to you.


i'm scared.

i should..

i SHOULD think before i speak..

i've just hurt someone's feeling..
and i know he's not the first person..
i think i've hurt a lot of people and i'm not aware of it..and im really SORRY..i didnt mean to..i dont have the intention to hurt anyone..

the truth is..sometimes people don't think that our joke is funny when actually,it hurts them..
and that is my PROBLEM..
 
i was thinking to say something else but it came out wrong and i assumed it would be funny (not funny as in ha ha but funny as in...xtau nk xplain) and now..i dont think he wants to talk to me..STUPID ME..dh la lama x jmpe dia..pastu i screwed it up..GOOD JOB NADIA!


i really should start to learn to shut up..(and THINK!)


to that person: im so so SORRY.. i really do.. sumpah xde niat nk bwt u terasa.. i just didn't think that you'll get hurt.. STUPID ME.. im SORRY :(


to everyone that is hurt by me: im so so SORRY..i didn't mean to..hope u guys will forgive me :(

dinner

arinie dinner kat AC..
jarang sungguh dapat decide mana nk dinner dgn cpt..
slalunye..
ada la setengah jam baru nk decide..
kalo ada list of places nk g pn..
mesti nk choose tue lama..
sorg rasa nk mkn nasik la..
sorg rasa nk mkn sup la..
sorg x kisah la..
sometimes..when dh decide..
ada yg xnk plak..
dah kene pk lg setengah jam..

bkn dinner aje..
lunch n breakfast pn sama la..
but..
i still love u guys no matter what..
bile dh grad nnt..
we wont be having our breakfast, lunch n dinner together anymore...
sume org dah jauh n ada life masing2.. 

im gonna miss u guys :'(

what is love?

What is love?

i know most of you will answer kasih-sayang..haha
but seriously..
what is love?


To me, 
love is a mix of emotions(sad,hurt,happy,hatred) and an adventure that will define who you are now or who you will be in the future..
why do i say that?
because love changes people..
it can be something negative or positive..
it depends on your experiences and who you are/were with..
true?

Love will not always end in happy ending..but it can end in misery..
Love does not always bring you joy..it brings sadness,too..
Love is not a fairytale..but it is a reality..
it hits you hard when you don't expect it the most..
you will cry like there's no tomorrow till your face are swollen..
but,
it also makes you laugh non-stop..
it makes your heart dug dag dug dag whenever you hear his/her voice..
it makes you hoping that the night is longer and the moon is brighter..


but..
like i said..it is not always a happy ending..
if it is..cherish it..appreciate it..enjoy it while it lasts..
and if it is not..
move on..don't dwell with the memories..be strong..
there is always someone out there that is better...

and because of all that..
it will define you..
it will make you a better person..or maybe not..
it will make you a stronger person..or maybe not..

either way..
be careful with love..
it is complicated..it is full of surprises..
don't be too comfortable with love..
but enjoy it while you can.

p/s:aku xtau apa aku merepek..kalo ko xphm..xpe..aku pn xphm..tgh ngntuk..

katil baru.

Do you know what is a sofa bed?

Ok, let me show you..

 

from a sofa

to

a bed! tadaa..!

So if you wanna know,that is where i sleep on everyday and night for this past two years..(or more..i dont remember)

 All i want is a new bed..

A new proper bed..

not the one that i have to pull it out when i wanna lie down and pull it in when i have to clean up the room..

it is messy and a tiring process!!!

you have to spread the bed sheet (or in my case comforter because it is easier) everytime you wanna sleep..

and fold it when you are done using the bed..

penat ok?

i want a new bed!

maybe something like this..

 simple

or

 

simple kn?

or maybe something cheaper but a bed..

a nice one..

not a sofa bed!

please!

mama, papa,

please?

u guys have promised me a new bed since last year!

please?

ohmyf-lord!

uwaa!!
teruknye aku pnye presentation today!
gara-gara nk kejar time!
uwaa!!
aku xnk fail this sem!!
uwaa!!!

 

something interesting ...

since no one wants to ajak me out tonight..

so i decided to surf the net (pdhal boleh je nk bwt ae)

and i decided to google on my horoscope which is VIRGO (duhh!)

so this is what i found out:

Virgo Strengths Keywords:

- Analytical (heh?)
- Observant (yaa..sometimes)
- Helpful (gahahaha..true?)
- Reliable (ini saya xtau..am i?)
- Precise (heh?)

Virgo Weakness Keywords:

- Skeptical (am i?)
- Fussy (gahahaha..maybe)
- Inflexible (heh?)
- Cold (erm..)
- Interfering (what's tht supposed to mean?)

Virgo and Independence:
Virgo is a very independent(?) zodiac sign. They are fully able to put their intelligence to use and get things done for themselves(?). It is possible however that their narrow mindedness causes their creativity to suffer and they may lead regular routine lives (no wonder la i x creative!). They may dwell too much on the past and over complicate things and this may limit their ability to move forward and confuse themselves. In conclusion, Virgos are able to be independent but the less evolved types will have difficult if someone is not there helping them to achieve more and not be so critical of themselves. (help!)

Virgo and Friendship:
People look up to Virgo for friends because they are straight thinkers and solve problems logically(haha). They are truthful, loyal and determined (yeah bebeh!). Some people might find them cold or emotionally detached(?) because they live in their minds, not in their emotions and feelings. It might be hard to pin down how a Virgo friend is feeling because they easily live in denial(?). A person who is able to read deep into another person will notice when Virgo is not well but if they confront them about it, they would rather retreat then talk about it. It is best to keep your emotional distance from a Virgo friend unless they open up to you first. Virgo might try to analyze and control a friend's life but only with the idea that they will improve their life, not purely for the sake of controlling(am i?). Be patient with your Virgo friend and understand that their recommendations are only to make your life better.

Virgo and Business:
Virgos are very intelligent, they have an excellent memory and a highly analytical mind(?). This makes them good investigators and researchers(?). They also have the ability to probe into a person's emotions and they can often see into people and detect what their motives are. This makes them great policemen or interrogators(so not in my job's list!). Virgos are very good at problem solving(i'm the worse!), this is what they do best. They are confronted with a problem, they will pick apart the pieces and put it together in the proper order(?). They are rational thinkers(i believe i am) and are good at settling other people's disputes and putting them on the right track for reconciliation.(bile masa?) Any position that requires the above features, which is a very long list, is perfect for the Virgo. They keep the world in order. (bak kata izza, aku muka keje ofis..hehe)

What's like to date  a Virgo Women:
 A Virgo woman is earthly and she may seem cold and detached(wth?), but underneath the timid, reserved surface lies the real woman, a strong, passionate woman with a great capacity for strong devoted love(haha!). She will play hard to get, she is hard to get for she is worried about exposing her emotional vulnerabilities and getting hurt(fiffy?is this true?). She requires patience and you will have to court her and work hard to impress her. Once she is in love, it is for the long term(yeah bebeh!). She will be devoted, loyal and make you very happy and even put a little order in your life(so true!). Virgo woman is conservative and old fashioned(oh..), a typical woman who is perfect for the man who loves a challenge and likes to take a relationship slow.

hahaha..
i personally like the last one..
betul x fiffy?
hehehe...

just read the ones that i highlighted..
its too long for you to read anyway..
:)

entri yang tiada makna

apakah yang telah terjadi?
mengapa ia terjadi?
adakah ianya salah aku?
salah dikau?
atau kau dan aku?

telah ku ungkapkan kemaafanku,
telah ku tahu kesilapanku,
telah ku sedari betapa bodohnya aku,
akan ku cuba untuk tidak mengulanginya.


tahulah engkau,
aku sanggup melakuka apa sahaja,
aku cuma berharap,
dikau juga begitu.

rubbish!!!

oh dear! oh dear!
my assignment is rubbish!
super duper rubbish that i do not know how to fix it..

oh dear! oh dear!
how am i supposed to fix it?
i do not want to get low marks again..


oh dear! oh dear!

HELP!!