nervous.

saya nervous.

Merdeka!

Happy Independence Day!

My favourite "Merdeka" song of all time :)

P/S: I miss celebrating Independence Day with friends at school and UiTM. We got to sing the Merdeka song out loud with the mini Jalur Gemilang in our hands. Those were the days. 

 HAPPY 53RD INDEPENDENCE DAY MALAYSIA!

31/08/10

thank you fiffy :)

27.08.10 - together for 18 months 

what did we do?

1. movie - phua chu kang the movie!

the movie was ok-lah. fiffy was the one who chose the movie. the movie was at 5pm. fiffy went to sunway pyramid around 11am to buy the ticket because today is holiday and he was scared that we will not be able to watch movie at all if we just gamble since i can't book the tickets online. initially, we wanted to watch "the last airbender" but i don't know why he decided to watch PCK instead. well, since he was the one who bought the tickets, i guess i just have to follow what he had chosen for us to watch. no biggie! :)

2. break fast - strawberry field

i chose this place because i was craving for their buttercream chicken rice. yummy! fiffy ordered the same thing too, except that mine was chicken, and his was seafood.

isn't it yummy? it was delicious! after fiffy bought the tickets, where he had to line up for about an hour, he went straight to Strawberry Field to book a table for us. i didn't know he was going to reserve the place because i thought we were going there after the break fast to avoid jam and waiting for tables. 

to be honest, i was surprised he did all that. i asked him to be in charge and he did! i'm happy that our date went well sayang :)

before i left, he gave me something. not a bouquet of flower, not a perfume, not a new bag, not a watch or any expensive things. he bought me a cooling pad for my laptop! a few days before, i told him that the cooling pad that i borrowed from him cannot be used anymore and i wanted to pay him back, since i broke his stuff. but instead, he bought me a new one. i know, maybe to some people, it is nothing, but to me, it is something. he just knew what i wanted or what i needed. and i needed a cooling pad for my laptop. thank you sayang!

thank you sayang. you always buy me stuff but i hardly buy u anything, i'm sorry. when i have money, i'll buy you the Superman t-shirt that you wanted ok ;)

happy 18th month sayang. i love you :)

ailurophobia

ailurophobia : fear of cats
--> An abnormal and persistent fear of cats which produces an undue anxiety reaction even though sufferers realize their fear is irrational. Sufferers of this phobia may fear not only the scratch or bite of a cat, but also the "evil mystique" of cats as depicted in Halloween folklore and such literary works as Edgar Allen Poe's "The Black Cat."


yeah..i'm scared that a cat will bite or scratch me..
it happened to me when i was a kid..
TRAUMA.


but i don't hate cats. i find them cute. but i'm scared to go near them or touch them. their fingernails are long and sharp! it hurts. 

aren't you scared of this cat? i feel like this cat will jump at anyone and scratch their faces off!

BUT

i do think this kitten is cute! :)

so don't think that just because i'm scared of cats/kittens, i'm going to be mean to them. 

because i won't. :)

i don't like it.

i never liked you.

i don't like it when you talk.

i don't like it when you sit beside me.

i don't like it when you think you are funny.

i don't like it when you act like you are innocent when you are not.

i don't like it when you think you are better than me.

i don't like it when you wear my clothes.

i don't like it when you talk on the phone.

i don't like it when you sleep.

i don't like it when you cook.

i don't like it when you bring your friends home.

i don't like it when you laugh.

i don't like it when you bring a child to my room and my parents' room.

i don't like it when you watch the television.

i don't like it when you listen to the radio.

i don't like it when you are in the car with me.

i don't like it when i have to drive you somewhere.

i don't like it when you are trying to make a conversation with me.

i don't like it when you talk about me to my parents.

i don't like it when you ask for my help.

i don't like it when you pretend to be concerned about me.

i don't like it when you scold my brothers.

to sum it up, i DON'T like YOU at all. the WHOLE YOU. in fact, i might starting to HATE you. thank you.

who would have thought

when i first watched this, i thought the judges would say 'no' but man, i was wrong!
when one of the judges asked "why do you think you got the X Factor?" and she replied "it could be me" (3 times)
i guess Simon does think she has the X Factor..it really could be her. 
watch it :)

balik kampung!

since this year we are going to celebrate raya here (kl), so my dad wants us to break fast at JB at least once with his siblings. trust me, going to JB is not what me and my brother are looking forward to. we kinda like the outsiders there because we don't have cousins that near  our age. it is either they are older or super younger. i used to be closed with them when i was younger but i don't know what had happened which makes me feel awkward when i am with them. but no worries, we'll be gone for only 2 days and 1 night and i really hope time will fly fast. 


tomorrow will be my mom's birthday, so we are going to celebrate it at JB. this is the first time we celebrate it outside KL. usually, we will celebrate it by having dinner at a restaurant (mom's choice) and then we will buy cake before we go home. it is just a small celebration. but tomorrow will be different. different place, different crowd and different type of food. maybe it will not be that bad. who knows right?


but before we go to JB, my youngest brother Jemir is going to do his Mykad. he has been asking my dad to do it for a few months already and tomorrow is the day. and guess what? Emir and I are going to renew our Mykad! yeay!!! we are soo looking forward for that!do you wanna know why?my picture in my current Mykad right now is super hideous!i am ashamed of myself!i am ashamed to show it to people. so tomorrow, i have the chance to redeem myself by making sure that my picture for my Mykad will be better. hehe..cant wait!


p/s: currently waiting for fiffy to come for sahur :)

tak sangka.

i went for cimb interview last friday and i think it went well.
except that they thought i am good at doing sales.
well, i think i have to just wait for them to call me to see if they are going to hire me or not.


last night, after 'berbuka' with my friends at flamming steamboat, i arrived home about 11 something. *kesas pun jam ok!*
and then, i went online and besides facebook-ing *since that is what all i do lately* i was also looking for a job through jobstreet.com and i realised that a company has replied my resume and wants me to go to interview this wednesday! at KEPONG!


i never knew the company was at KEPONG. 
the company's name was confidential but i just sent my resume because the position is for event executive/coordinator *sounds cool kan?* and i certainly did not expect that i will be called for an interview!
now i am super nervous!i don't even know how to get there!i guess tomorrow i have to drive around so that i wont get lost on wednesday.


wish me luck!

buka puasa: FIRST DAY

i love it when my mom cooks for buka puasa.
today..she cooked mee bandung, nasi goreng cili padi, steak and drummet!
wohohoho!
and i was forced to finish the nasi goreng cili padi since it is too spicy for my parents..haha..
i love you mama!
you know how to make your daughter happy!
and i think, by the end of ramadhan, i will be super fat if she keeps cooking like this!hehe

unexpected phone call.

yesterday.

unexpected phone call.

cimb.

friday, 2pm.

good luck.

to me.

happy Ramadhan!

Happy Ramadhan everyone! 

let's cherish this month and celebrate it by doing more 'ibadah' :)

i'm so nervous for my 1st day of puasa tomorrow and i don't know why!haha

happy fasting! :)

p/s: fiffy is coming to sahur with me..isn't he is sweet? *but i'm not a sahur kinda person..but im happy that he is willing to come...ngeee~


p/s/s: sahur two times is not what i have in mind..i always make sure i sahur on the first day with my family..i guess i won't be hungry at all for my first day of puasa tomorrow!hehe

love the way you lie.

love the song.
love the video.
                                                     

*rihanna*

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

That's all right 

Because i like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

That's alright

Because I love 

The way you lie

I Love the way you lie

I Love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife 

In my windpipe

I can't breathe

But l still fight

While I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right

It's like I'm in flight

High off of love

Drunk from my hate

It's like I'm huffin' paint

And I love her the more that I suffer

I suffocate

And right before I'm about to drown

She resuscitates me

She fucking hates me

And i love it 

Wait

Where you going 

I'm leaving you

No you ain't

Come back

We're running right back

Here we go again

It's so insane

Cause when it's going good

It's going great

I'm superman 

With the wind in his bag

She's Lois Lane

But when it's bad

It's awful

I feel so ashamed

I snapped

Who's that dude

I don't even know his name

I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again

I guess I don't know my own strength

*rihanna*

You ever loved somebody so much

You could barely breathe 

When you're with them

You meet 

And neither one of you

Even know what hit 'em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills 

Used to get 'em

Now you getting fucking sick

Of looking at 'em

You swore you've never hit 'em

Never do nothing to hurt 'em

Now you're in each other's faces

Spewing venom

in your words 

When you spit 'em 

You push, pull each other's hair

Scratch, claw, bite 'em

Throw 'em down

Pin 'em

So lost in the moments

When you're in 'em 

It's the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it's best

To go your separate ways

Guess that they don't know ya

Cause today

That was yesterday

Yesterday is over

It's a different day

Sound like broken records

Playin' over

But you promised her

Next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave

Out the window

Guess that's why they call it window pane

*rihanna*

Now I know we said things

Did things

That we didn't mean

And we fall back

Into the same patterns

Same routines

But you're temper's just as bad 

As mine is

You're the same as me

But when it comes to love

You"re just as blinded

Baby please come back

It wasn't you 

Baby it was me 

Maybe our relationship 

Isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens 

When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is

I love you too much

To walk away through

Come inside

Pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity

In my voice when i talk

Told you this is my fault

Look me in the eyeball

Next time i'm pissed

I'll aim my fist

At the dry wall

Next time 

There will be no next time

I apologize

Even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of these games

I just want her back

I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I'mma tie her to the bed

And set the house on fire

*rihanna*

oh mengapa

tidak aku tau mengapa ini sering terjadi kepada diriku, tetapi bukan kepada orang lain. 
aku selalu tertanya-tanya, "Mengapa aku?" Malam ini, ia terjadi lagi. Alkisahnye:


Aku sampai umah pada pukul 10pm. Pabila aku ingin mandi, ibuku sedang menggunakan tandas. lalu, aku pun online lah sementara menunggu ibuku selesai di tandas. setelah setengah jam aku ber-facebook and bergayut, sudah tiba masanye untuk aku mandi kerana badanku sudah gatal-gatal.


secara tetiba, lampu tandas tidak berfungsi. asyik berkelip-kelip. telah kucuba on/off beberapa kali tetapi, tetap berkelip-kelip. perasaan bengang ku muncul. ditambah pula dengan badan yang semakin gatal, yang menandakan badan ku memerlukan curahan air dan sabun mandi sebagai ubat. dan tidak lupe juga, aku ingin sangat-sangat terkucil. 


aku di dalam dilema di mana aku sedang berfikir, perlukah aku mandi dengan pintu terbuka supaya mendapat cahaya dari lampu di luar tandas atau perlukah aku tutup sahaja? akhirnye, aku membuat keputusan untuk menutup pintu, khuatir jika tetiba ibu bapa ku dan adikku ternampak apa yang mereka sepatutnye tidak nampak. jadi, paham-paham jela. 


sedang aku bermandi, aku terbayangkan benda-benda yang tidak sepatutnye. aku membayangkan cerita-cerita seram yang mempunyai adegan-adegan di dalam tandas. aku semakin cuak! lantas aku cube untuk mandi dengan cepat. aku skip untuk syampu rambut. tetiba, lampu tandas aku tidak lagi terkelip-kelip. ia terpadam terus! semakin kuat aku membayangkan adegan-adegan dalam cerita seram. pada masa yang sama, air shower ku terhenti. dan aku dalam keadaan bersabun. oh betapa aku benci keadaan ini terjadi. aku terpaksa tunggu beberapa minit supaya air shower ku muncul kembali. 


oh kenapalah ini sentiasa terjadi pada diriku dan bukan ahli keluargaku yang lain??