what if.

there are so many what if questions in my mind that sometimes it bothers me so much that i can't sleep.

i don't want to think of it but i can't help it.

it makes me doubting on every decisions that i made. 

"what if i was meant to do something else but not this?"

"what if this is not what i want actually but i just don't see it yet?"

"what if i didn't do that, would my life be any different than it is now?"

yeah, those are some of the what if questions that are messing with my mind.

there are more, but i don't think i can list all of it.

haha.