CUT.

Listen to this song..and understand it..and feel it..

"I'm not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
and tears that still drip sore


A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see


Chorus:
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside
just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when I am cut


I may seem crazy
or painfully shy
and these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye


I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel
Anything kills me inside


*Chorus*
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone


I am not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore


*Chorus* "

update!

i know i have not been updating my blog since god knows when..huhu..i have been busy..(as if!haha)..
let me update u to what i have been up to since last month..here it goes:

1. May 2010 : worked my ass of to finish my AE and i did it!!! pheww!
                     : did my final exam yang macam haram!huhu

2. May - June 2010 - worked with tazree to promote Wall's at primary schools with my beloved fiffy and tatie

*paddle pop..paddle po.."

3. June 2010 - went to tioman with fiffy,tatie,ella,azri,liyana,izza and ejam..*it was fun!!!*

*we stayed at sun beach resort..fiffy tukang amek gmbr*

*in the room with the bimbos*

*at the jeti waiting for the ferry*

*bbq nite!*

               - lepak with Izza at Starbucks KLCC and NZ...
               - went to TrueSpa with Izza *free back massage!hehe*
               - lepak with my kesayangan aka fiffy *love*

*baru balik dating!*

              
And right now, i am still menganggur..huhu..to my friends yang dah start keje..congrates! :)

that is all bebeh!

peace!

weee!

tomorrow is a vacay day for me n my friends!!
weee!!
im glad that tatie n fiffy decided to join at last!
wee!!!!!
too bad minoza cant join.. :(
so see you guys on tues!!!weee!

hungry :(

lapar!!!!
uwaaaaa!!!!
perutku berbunyi...
uwaa!!!

padan muka kat diri sendirik..
tadi masa kat imthiyaz, sapa suro x abiskan maggie goreng...
kan dah lapar tgh malam buta nie..
huhu

is it really over?

except for my AE..
i don't think there is anything left for me to do here in shah alam..
except for the fact that i'm working with mr tazree until the end of May..
but after that..i'm outta here...
does that mean my student's life is over?
after 5 years of studying here..
after 5 years of thinking when would this day come..
and now..
it is finally here..
it it really over?


p/s:saman x bayar lagik!!huhu

i love u mama..happy mother's day!

Dear mama,
happy mother's day..
i'm sorry for everything that i've done..
i know i'm not the perfect daughter that you have always hoped for..
i always disagree with you in so many things..
we do not share things or anything like any other mothers and daughters do..
we are not close like how a mother and a daughter should be..
we do not hug each other..
we do not kiss each other..
we do not talk to each other unless it is important..
we do not have a close relationship like any other mothers and daughters do..
we even hardly have our pictures taken together...
i am jealous with my friends and cousins for their closeness with their mother..
but ma,
just know that i always love you no matter what..
just know that you can count on me..
just know that you can trust me...
i love you..

happy mother's day mama

i am speechless...

i think this kid might be disabled..
by the look of her legs..it is like she is boneless..
i dunno how or what to feel when i watch this video...
it is a mixture of feelings..
huhu..