I cried.

I cried and I cried and I prayed. 

Hoping that my life will be better. Hoping that I will have a better future. Hoping that I will be able to go through all the obstacles.

But somehow, I feel like I am destined to be a failure.

No matter how hard I try to climb up, I will always fall down.

I envy those who succeeds in everything.

Especially those whom I think are not worthy. Yes, I'm a little bit upset here. 

But maybe, just maybe, this is the way that God is trying to tell me to work harder. 

Maybe He wants to test me.

Or maybe He is punishing me for all the sins that I have done.

I cried and I cried and I prayed.

Hoping that all of this will go away.

Hoping that all of this is just a dream. 

Hoping to wake up tomorrow with a good news.

Perkara yang saya TAK SUKA.

Ada beberapa perkara yang saya memang TAK SUKA pasal orang dan beberapa perkara itu adalah:

1. TAK SUKA bile orang TAK SIGNAL nak ke kiri or kanan. Bikin stress ok?
2. TAK SUKA bile orang nak ke KIRI tapi SIGNAL KANAN atau sebaliknya. Perlu ke sekolah dan belajar kiri dan kanan ke?
3. TAK SUKA bile orang di depan berjalan sambil menghayunkan tangan dia setinggi yang boleh. Lebih-lebih lagi kalo dia memegang payung. Hello, ada orang kat belakang awak tue. 
4. TAK SUKE bile orang di depan jalan sangat lembab! 
5. TAK SUKE bile ada orang yang kita kenal buat-buat TAK NAMPAK padahal dia dah nampak. Tak perlu lah menggelabah sangat.
6. TAK SUKE bile orang lupe kawan bile dia dah ada kawan baru atau boyfriend/girlfriend baru. Bile dah susah baru terhegeh nak cari kawan lama la?
7. TAK SUKE memandu di belakang lori atau bas. Tak nampak jalan. Tapi bas and lori nie tak reti nak memandu di lorong yang sepatutnya mereka memandu. HISH!
8. TAK SUKE bile orang tue nak menipu tapi kantoi melalui Facebook or Twitter. Hello, kalo taknak kantoi, janganlah update status!
9. TAK SUKE bile orang tak paham bahasa. Macam nak sekeh je kepala.
10. TAK SUKE bile orang tue cakap lain, tapi dia buat benda lain lepas tue.
11. TAK SUKE bile orang tue sangatlah riak atau berlagak tapi berpura-pura tidak berlagak. Hello, actions speak louder than words ok?
12. TAK SUKE bile tengah tengok wayang, orang di belakang buat bising (i.e gelak, cakap kuat, bercerita pasal movie tue). Saya bayar tiket wayang mahal bukan untuk dengar awak bising atau bercerita, paham?
13. TAK SUKE kalo lelaki itu sangatlah kacak dan comel tetapi malangnya dia gay. Kenapa???

Orang sebegini bikin stress!

Happy Mama's Day!

Happy Mother's Day, Mama!

Thank you so much everything that you have done for me. I know I'm not a perfect daughter but I do love you. I'm sorry for all the hurt that I've caused you. Sorry for being such a disappointment daughter. Sorry for not able to give you money. 

But I promise you, I will do my best to take care of you and be there for you whenever you need me.

Thank you for loving me and thank you for always being there for me. 

Love you, Ma.

who says two is better than one?

Honestly, I have no idea how people manage to handle work and study at the same time. I have been working for 2 weeks and I am struggling right now. Thank God today will be my last class for this semester. 

But my final papers will be on the 29th of April and I hope I manage to study. Do you see the letter 's'? Yerp. Two final papers in 1 DAY. 

• 3-5.30 pm
• 6-9 pm

Menangis tak?

I just hope I can do it. 

p/s: baru 2 minggu keje, dah whining. buruk perangai kan?

Emmeline.

Introducing Erland and The Carnival. "Emmeline"

Thanks to Dianna Agron (Quinn in Glee), I am now addicted to this song. AWHSOME! 

p/s: i feel like i'm someplace else when I listen to this song. 

The lonely.

This song gives me chills. 

One 'bimbo' family at home!

Something happened just now. 

It started like this....

I was on my way to the kitchen, and halfway there, I saw something on the floor. It was brown in color, the size was 5x bigger than a cockroach and it has something like an 'antenna'. I walked back to the living room and asked my youngest brother, Jemir to take a look at it.

Big mistake.

Me: Jemir, apa tue kat dapur?

Jemir: Apa?

Me: Tengok la...

Jemir: *walked slowly with a pillow in his hand and menyorok belakang dinding to take a look at that thing*

Jemir: EEEEE! Apa tue?????

Me: Mana lah kakak taw!!

Jemir: Ma, tengok ma! *peluk bantal*

Now my mom and my dad.

Mama: Apa dia? *menyorok belakang dinding ALSO to take a look at that thing*

Mama: EEEE!! Apa tue?? Pa! Tengok pa! Apa tue??

Papa: Apa dia? Ayam la. Ayam percik jatuh kot.

*my dad bought ayam percik for dinner*

Mama: Bukan! Tengok la!

Papa: *walked slowly and menyorok belakang dinding ALSO*

Papa: EEEE! Apa tue? 

Mama, Me and Jemir: Taktau! Tengokla!

Papa: *went to the kitchen to get a closer look with a newspaper in his hand*

Papa: OWH..... Nie haiwan yang confuse tue...

Jemir: If dia terbang, Jemir lari naik!

Papa: Tak terbang la. Haiwan yang confuse tue la.

Me: Haiwan apa?

Papa: Haiwan nie taktau dia siput or dia babi.

Mama: Buang la!

Papa: *he picked it up and brought it to the living room*

Mama, Me and Jemir: *screamed*

Wanna know why we screamed? Because my dad wanted to throw it to us. Especially to my mom. And my mom took a newspaper and beat my dad up and my dad almost put it on my mom's head! And where was I and Jemir you asked? We were on the other side of the living room holding a pillow in case my dad wanted to throw it at us. Haha.

And when my dad wanted to throw the 'siput babi' outside, he accidentally dropped it on the floor and EVERYBODY screamed! Yeah, we were like bimbos. Haha.

p/s: Emir was not home. So, he missed out the whole thing. Too bad! Back to ASSignments now.