pathetic, i am.

yeah, i'm pathetic. i know. 

the fasting month is bacckk!

List of food that I wanted to eat before Ramadhan:

1. Sakae Sushi
2. Johnny's Steamboat
3. Chicken Rice Shop
4. Nando's
5. Old Town White Coffee
6. Cheesy Wedges (KFC)
7. Ben's
8. Red Velvet Cake/Cupcake
9. Aunty Anne
10. Tony Roma's
11. IKEA Meatballs
12. Butter Cream Chicken Rice

I'm so going to crave some of the food that I did not manage to eat before fasting. I don't really like to 'berbuka' at restaurants because i hate the waiting part. And the food will be served early and it will be cold once we eat it. Oh well....

Anyways, Selamat Berpuasa everyone!

Happy Ramadhan!

p/s: to the boys, please don't ponteng puasa ;)

i want twins!

aren't they just too cute?

should i care?

if only i could do that.

if only i have that kind of attitude. 

Check in the dark - The stand In

Lyrics:
i saw an angel night before last
they come from kentucky, who'd have thought that?
she had a smile, it was so genuinely kind
sorta make you feel like you're sipping on some fine red wine

she rendered me speechless, well she rendered me still
she had me feeling like the fool on the hill
she said she's taken but i don't believe
that she could be meant for anybody but me

angels come from kentucky i guess
sweet sweet girl you made my head a mess
you got me locked out here, dancing in the rain
drunk with the thought of your smiling face
i know you are an angel and it can not be
but what if it was you and what if it was me
and...what if 600 years ago, you were juliet and I was...
well you know how that story goes....

so what if its a puzzle and you're the only piece the only jig to make my saw complete
what if i go stumbling for the rest of my days because i am a cripple and you were my cane oh no....

angels come from kentucky i guess
sweet sweet girl you made my head a mess
you got me locked out here, dancing in the rain
drunk with the thought of your smiling face
i know you are an angel and it can not be
but what if it was you and what if it was me
and...what if 600 years ago, you were juliet and I was...
well you know how that story goes....


p/s: I don't know why but I think this song is so sweet. Can't stop listening to it.

Going down.

I built my wall of confidence this high...

but now....

it's crumbling down.....

crumbling down....

down....

down....

down...

down...

and

DOWN.

I have no more strength to pretend how tough i can be.

I have nothing but feel ashamed of myself. 

p/s: praying to Allah to help me to go through these difficulties and make me stronger than I was ever before. 

no happy ending.

Right now I'm in a phase where:

I just want run away and hide.

I can't handle the truth.

I can't stop blaming myself for making that stupid mistake.

For once, I just want things to go according to my plan.

Or how I imagine it to be.