i miss them :(

i miss these two crazy beaches!!

dear ex wife, i miss u :)

i call them 'the bimbos' 

rindu sama dia!org nie x reti2 nk balik dari german ke?

when can we hang out like this again? :(

my dearest housemate, ella :) love u beach!

The Gagas bebeh! wuhuuu!

pre grad dinner..i miss them already :(

buka puasa at flamming steamboat..bile nak makan sana lagi geng?

and to fiffy, I LOVE YOU TO BITS! :)

gorgeous~

isn't she gorgeous?
can i have her body and also her looks?


p/s: this song stuck in my head..love it!

going strong :)

it has been 18 months that me and fiffy got together and i love him to bits!
he has always been there for me whenever i need him there..
he loves me for who i am and i really appreciate that..
our love and relationship is getting stronger than before..
i hope our relationship will last long..
i love you mohd nashrul shafiq :)

love.

gerarld butler *drools*

i've just watched p.s. i love you at ASTRO and surprisingly, even though the movie is not as good as the book, i still cried every time i watched it. but unlike the book, i cried like from the first page till the end! you have no idea how the story touched me. the part where Gerry (Gerard Butler) planned everything before he died to help his wife to move on with her life without him, the part where he ends his letter with p.s. i love you, the part where he wants her to love again with someone else, the part where Holly (Hillary Swank) doesn't feel his presence anymore at the end of the movie..ohmaigod..it is so touching and moving!i am on tears right now as i am writing this..i hate love story!it always make me cry :'(


when you love someone, it means that you give your whole heart to that person. you dedicate your life to him. you do everything for him. you live for him. but what happen when he is no longer there? what happen to your life? does it died along with him? i salute to all the women who are strong enough to move on with their life. i know i can't. i always thought that i am an independent woman. i can live without man in my life. oh boy, i was wrong. i am starting to be dependent on the person i love. i feel like i always need him there with me. i feel like i'm a clingy person! and that is not good. oh dear!


do you sometimes have an awkward feeling when you enter a room full of people alone? but when the  person you love is there with you, everything is just perfect. no more awkwardness, no more loneliness. i always feel extra confident when i have that special someone with me..i feel like i can be totally me when i am with him..no secrets..i am comfortable with my own skin..don't get me wrong here..but sometimes, you still feel lonely even though you are with your friends and family..you feel complete when he is there with you. most of the time, that is how i feel. 


i always put myself in holly's shoes and it scares me. even though it is just a movie (or a story), but i can feel the pain that holly goes through in the story, i cried like i am holly, where the person i love had died and i am all alone. i don't think having family and friends around me will help me overcome my loneliness. i can always mingle around to avoid myself from drowning with sadness but somehow the memory will always be there.  i always pray hoping that i will not encounter that kind of situation some day but we can't predict the future, can we? i'm hoping for the best where my love with him will stay forever and i will have a different ending than holly's. i know it is just a movie, but i could happen right?


p/s:i'm rambling..i'm sleepy..this is what happen when i watch love story when i'm not in a good mood :(

CUT.

Listen to this song..and understand it..and feel it..

"I'm not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
and tears that still drip sore


A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see


Chorus:
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside
just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when I am cut


I may seem crazy
or painfully shy
and these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye


I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel
Anything kills me inside


*Chorus*
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone


I am not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore


*Chorus* "

update!

i know i have not been updating my blog since god knows when..huhu..i have been busy..(as if!haha)..
let me update u to what i have been up to since last month..here it goes:

1. May 2010 : worked my ass of to finish my AE and i did it!!! pheww!
                     : did my final exam yang macam haram!huhu

2. May - June 2010 - worked with tazree to promote Wall's at primary schools with my beloved fiffy and tatie

*paddle pop..paddle po.."

3. June 2010 - went to tioman with fiffy,tatie,ella,azri,liyana,izza and ejam..*it was fun!!!*

*we stayed at sun beach resort..fiffy tukang amek gmbr*

*in the room with the bimbos*

*at the jeti waiting for the ferry*

*bbq nite!*

               - lepak with Izza at Starbucks KLCC and NZ...
               - went to TrueSpa with Izza *free back massage!hehe*
               - lepak with my kesayangan aka fiffy *love*

*baru balik dating!*

              
And right now, i am still menganggur..huhu..to my friends yang dah start keje..congrates! :)

that is all bebeh!

peace!

weee!

tomorrow is a vacay day for me n my friends!!
weee!!
im glad that tatie n fiffy decided to join at last!
wee!!!!!
too bad minoza cant join.. :(
so see you guys on tues!!!weee!