thinking about the future~

i have just finished my one and only paper for this last semester of my degree year..
i have been a student in UiTM Shah Alam for 5 years already and now, this is the end.. (i hope)
i am sad to leave but i hope that i wont have to repeat any subjects..
i want to graduate.
but,
i have not finished all of my assignments and my AE yet..
but i have been asked by so many people about my future..
and i am so scared..
i am not sure if i am ready to face the real world..
all this time i was avoiding myself from thinking about my future..
about what am i going to do after i grad..do i want to continue my study?if yes, where? what course do i want to take?
or..
what kind of job do i want to get? not a teacher, that is for sure. i cant teach! my english sucks! how can i be teacher if i cant teach and my english sucks right??
my mom wants me to work at a bank..i strongly refuse to do so because i dont want to work in a bank..i dont know why but i dont feel like working in the same environment as my mom..huhu..choosy and picky..i know..
but if i am so desperate for a job..i guess i will have to just accept it..no choice.. *sigh*
and then i get a message from my mom telling me to do my CV A.S.A.P..
i havent finished my assignments and my AE and now i have to think of my CV? stress!!
my mom wants me to try a shot at media prima..i think i prefer that rather than working at a bank..huhu
but to be honest..
i feel like i just wanna stay home and just do whatever i want..
how i wish i am related to sultan brunei..
i'll be rich and i dont need to work because money just flows in!huhu


a girl can always dream right?

T-T

i went back home with izza today and it was jammed everywhere!
even though it was already 10pm..
maybe because today is friday..
so maybe everybody is embracing the weekend? who knows..
we were also kinda like 'sesat' on the way to izza's..hehe
arrived home around 1130pm..
thank god my parents are not home!
but..i can't use the internet!
i don't know what the hell is wrong with my laptop internet's setting..
the internet is so slow at my shah alam's house and i cannot use the internet at my KL's house.. 
bengang x?
it pisses me off because i really need it to do my assignments!
can u imagine that i still have assignments to do even though i have finished my final paper? *sigh*
not to mention i have to do amendments for my AE.. *double sigh*
i have to use my brother's pc...
benci! benci! benci!

xsuke!!

blerghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!
marahnye!!!
bengangnye!!
tensionnye!!!!


i can't online for like 3 days and all this while i thought it was because of the streamyx..
i called tmnet and that stupid guy was so rude! *nasib baikla ko lg tau psl internet nie*
and turned out, it wasnt the streamyx's fault, but my laptop's fault..the setting for internet was "x betul"..
*sia2 je aku maki tmnet..hehe*
so i called rayner n he came n he helped n now..i can online!
happy giler!!!
but yang x happynye is when i can only connect for like less than half an hour...asyik terdisconnect je!
stress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

random thoughts~

why do men always find excuses to cheat on their partner?
WHY??
just because you are unhappy with your marriage or relationship, you use that excuse to find someone else behind her back..?
why can't you just leave her/dump her/divorce her first and then go find someone new?
why must you do it while you are in a relationship??
you think that is forgivable?
and then when your partner/wife finds out about it, you blame her..
you'd say that she is not understanding, there is no spark or whatever reasons that you guys always come up with..
but then, when things do not go as what you have planned with your new someone, you want your ex-partner back..
and say something like you were the best gf/wife i've ever had, or you were the only who understood me, i have always loved you..
oh please...
and when she says no..you get mad..
you blame her again...
wtf??
you say women are complicated..i think MEN are complicated too..


p/s:i'm not saying all men are like that..just a few ;)
p/s/s:sorry for my grammar mistakes..i know there's a lot!